hi
I don’t write in here as often because I no longer have a following. I lost most of my readers along the way. But for the few stragglers who still come here from time to time..here’s an update:
Things are still good at my new job. Its boring work but at least I'm not crazy busy and stressed out like I was at last job. I have a familiarity and comfort here that was missing at my last job. My bosses are nice and treat me well. So all's well on that end. It definitely feels like the calm after the storm, after years of working for an asshole.
My son is getting ready to move to Florida next week and im torn between being sad and anxious to being relieved and annoyed. He’s at an age where living with him is becoming a nuisance, but I also realize he may never live with me again and I should just treasure these last minute annoyances. I wonder if we will have a relationship as he grows into an adult. We’re not really close and most of the time, it seems we do not like each other. Unfortunately, that is the story with me and MOST of my relatives, exception being one of my sisters and her 3 girls. I enjoy their company, cannot say the same for my son. We’re just too different and too alike, if that makes any sense. We rub each other the wrong way all the time. He thinks he knows it all and that I’m a clueless drunken crazy idiot. What he fails to realize is that he is so sheltered and clueless that he cant even see how sheltered and clueless he really is...and how little life he’s really lived. When you’ve done all I’ve done, then you can sit there smugly and lecture me. But that’s the way it is with youth. Weren’t we all that way?? I most definitely was. Now I look back and realized that when I thought I knew it all, in fact I knew absolutely nothing at all. Hindsight is always 20/20.
Sometimes I regret not having had other children, particularly a daughter. It is my nieces who I treasure the most. They always put a smile on my face and I wonder if I had a daughter, if she’d have the same effect on me, or would she and I butt heads like my son and I do. I guess anyone you have to live with will annoy you at some point or another. That’s just life. Looking forward to living alone for awhile and I hope the distance will actually bring my son and me closer.
As far as pursuing acting, I am still working on that and making baby steps progress, but at least its something. I signed up with a background casting agency in NY and I actually got a chance to work on a set recently. Im not sure if I can name the show, do not want to jeopardize any future jobs, so all I’ll say is its a cop drama on CBS which airs Friday nights at 10pm, starting Sept 23. I did background on Episode 3. Background work is exactly that, background..extras. You just try to blend in with the scenery and do whatever they ask you to do and hope that after a long exhausting day on the set, you at least make it onscreen for a few minutes. That makes it all worth it.
I am going to continue taking acting lessons and work on getting signed with an agent so that I can get speaking parts, maybe some commercials, there’s good money in that. So that’s that for now. My goal is to some day be able to make this my full-time job and actually make decent money off it. Im not looking for fame or movie star life, just want to be a working actress who can live off acting, enough to quit my day job. That has always been my dream.
Im still single and I have not had a single date all year. Once I started focusing on acting, dating fell by the wayside and I have not been able to make any connections in that regard. Funnily enough, I haven’t had the time to be lonely. Sometimes I wish I had someone. But then I think if I had to choose between getting a great acting job or getting a great guy, I’d choose the acting job. Because a great guy is an illusion that does not exist so might as well choose my next great passion.
I also want to learn French. I need to learn new things because my acting resume, the part where you put talents/skills is sorely lacking (skiing, surfing, skydiving, horseback riding, gymnastics...you know all the things I’ve always wanted to do and was too poor and sheltered to do...yea, those things woulda came in handy right now!- they look great on an acting resume and help get you more jobs).
:/ ah well. Im still too poor to do any of those things but I can at least learn French. That’ll come in handy. I took it in high school and just want to expand on it.
That’s it for now. Thanks for visiting, please come back again soon.
Things are still good at my new job. Its boring work but at least I'm not crazy busy and stressed out like I was at last job. I have a familiarity and comfort here that was missing at my last job. My bosses are nice and treat me well. So all's well on that end. It definitely feels like the calm after the storm, after years of working for an asshole.
My son is getting ready to move to Florida next week and im torn between being sad and anxious to being relieved and annoyed. He’s at an age where living with him is becoming a nuisance, but I also realize he may never live with me again and I should just treasure these last minute annoyances. I wonder if we will have a relationship as he grows into an adult. We’re not really close and most of the time, it seems we do not like each other. Unfortunately, that is the story with me and MOST of my relatives, exception being one of my sisters and her 3 girls. I enjoy their company, cannot say the same for my son. We’re just too different and too alike, if that makes any sense. We rub each other the wrong way all the time. He thinks he knows it all and that I’m a clueless drunken crazy idiot. What he fails to realize is that he is so sheltered and clueless that he cant even see how sheltered and clueless he really is...and how little life he’s really lived. When you’ve done all I’ve done, then you can sit there smugly and lecture me. But that’s the way it is with youth. Weren’t we all that way?? I most definitely was. Now I look back and realized that when I thought I knew it all, in fact I knew absolutely nothing at all. Hindsight is always 20/20.
Sometimes I regret not having had other children, particularly a daughter. It is my nieces who I treasure the most. They always put a smile on my face and I wonder if I had a daughter, if she’d have the same effect on me, or would she and I butt heads like my son and I do. I guess anyone you have to live with will annoy you at some point or another. That’s just life. Looking forward to living alone for awhile and I hope the distance will actually bring my son and me closer.
As far as pursuing acting, I am still working on that and making baby steps progress, but at least its something. I signed up with a background casting agency in NY and I actually got a chance to work on a set recently. Im not sure if I can name the show, do not want to jeopardize any future jobs, so all I’ll say is its a cop drama on CBS which airs Friday nights at 10pm, starting Sept 23. I did background on Episode 3. Background work is exactly that, background..extras. You just try to blend in with the scenery and do whatever they ask you to do and hope that after a long exhausting day on the set, you at least make it onscreen for a few minutes. That makes it all worth it.
I am going to continue taking acting lessons and work on getting signed with an agent so that I can get speaking parts, maybe some commercials, there’s good money in that. So that’s that for now. My goal is to some day be able to make this my full-time job and actually make decent money off it. Im not looking for fame or movie star life, just want to be a working actress who can live off acting, enough to quit my day job. That has always been my dream.
Im still single and I have not had a single date all year. Once I started focusing on acting, dating fell by the wayside and I have not been able to make any connections in that regard. Funnily enough, I haven’t had the time to be lonely. Sometimes I wish I had someone. But then I think if I had to choose between getting a great acting job or getting a great guy, I’d choose the acting job. Because a great guy is an illusion that does not exist so might as well choose my next great passion.
I also want to learn French. I need to learn new things because my acting resume, the part where you put talents/skills is sorely lacking (skiing, surfing, skydiving, horseback riding, gymnastics...you know all the things I’ve always wanted to do and was too poor and sheltered to do...yea, those things woulda came in handy right now!- they look great on an acting resume and help get you more jobs).
:/ ah well. Im still too poor to do any of those things but I can at least learn French. That’ll come in handy. I took it in high school and just want to expand on it.
That’s it for now. Thanks for visiting, please come back again soon.
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