bittersweet eye candy..

There’s this guy I currently have a crush on.  he’s taken, so nothing is gonna happen there but i mention him because he only serves to remind me that in my life, I have never had a chance with someone like him.  He is an attractive man but not too attractive, very sexy in my opinion, intelligent, very sweet and just friendly enough, but kinda reserved too, very calm and mellow, respectful, very helpful, hard worker and I assume, totally faithful.  He is friendly without crossing the line to flirty.  Did I mention he was hotasfuck.  How does someone like him even exist?  You know what makes him even more special?  He’s one of my own.  Now if you know anything about me, you know I really don’t like my own kind.  They’re gross.  Generally speaking of course.  once in a blue moon, there is an exception…papichulo is that exception.  how come I never had a chance with a guy like him.  I can divide the guys who are interested in me into 2 categories:  LOSERMOFOS and UGLIES.  So either they’re total worthless shit or they are nice but do nothing for me.  And I was supposed to pick one of these and settle unhappily ever after?  FUCK THAT.  that’s why I stayed single.  Whats the point.  But every time I see him, I am reminded that guys like him do exist and some women have all the luck.......................

Why couldn’t I be some women.