Bucke DOWN

Instead of worrying about stupid shit like worthless mofos who werent mine to begin with so I don’t know why I felt like im the one getting cheated on, what I need to be focusing on is getting more acting work and to that end, I have not been successful, after the one time in April.  I unsuccessfully tried to get work over the Labor Day weekend as two movies were shooting in NYC that weekend, both featuring my favorite actors.  No one called me although I submitted for notices repeatedly.  At one point someone emailed me to ask me if I was still interested and because I wasn’t expecting them to contact me via email, I did not see it until it was too late.  Like WTF is going on here!?  They used to call me ALL the time before.  Being on a set or the stage is like life support for me.  I NEED IT.    And right now I havent done much of either.  I’ve had a busy year taking care of boring shit, like moving, selling my condo (finally succeeded in putting that baby to rest thanks to the great new realtor I got a month ago, she kicked ass and got it done in a month!-that's WHAT's UP!!) and wrapping up loose ends.  Now that’s all taken care of, I hope to be able to focus on this.  Im getting too comfortable and complacent.  I need to challenge myself and that is mostly accomplished on the stage.  Its like jumping without a safety net, where you either learn to fly or crash to the ground.  I LOVE that.  I’ve been way too distracted lately, time to buckle down, refocus and get going.